“Variety is the spice of life, but routine is the essence of life.”
This is a quote from Joe, a recovering alcoholic I knew in my teen years. He was an interesting man and I learned much about life from him. It’s come to my mind today because my daily routine is shifting. Despite my objections, I now have to spend a little more time caring for my body. Each day I gain a new appreciation for the old adage, “If you have your health, you have everything.”
Oh, I could fill this whole post with little one-liners and seem very wise. It’s not how I feel. Honestly, I feel a bit frustrated about it today. There are so many things I’d like to do with such limited time. And now with a new medical diagnosis, I have to shift my routine again. I don’t want it to, but it does change the essence of who I am and adds to an ever-growing list of small concerns.
The routine that has changed now is bed time. There is putting the cats in their room, turning out lights, checking doors, brushing teeth, PJs, pillows, and a bit of reading. Now, I add CPAP, check the machine, strap on the mask and put my head down without tangling myself in the hose. Millions of people do it each night, but it’s annoying to have that one more thing to do.
Mornings have changed too, as before I even swing my legs out of bed there is a hose, a mask and a machine to deal with.
My mind rebels with the thought, “Not the life I want.” It’s similar to the thought I had when the doctor called to tell me I had cancer, “Not the journey I want to take.”
How often in life are we forced down a path we don’t chose?
Still, in everything there is some good. After the mask comes off, I have more energy than I had before. There’s been no more foot pain since starting with my new footwear.
Shower, shave, dress. Clean the litter boxes and vacuum the carpet. Go to the workshop for a little creative time. Make a cup of tea and sit at the keyboard and write.
Such are the routines I’ve done today. Soon I’ll have to add six month checkups at the sleep clinic to the list of routine health care that includes the dentist, blood tests and my semiannual reminder that I had radiation treatments.
So the question in my mind tonight is, “How to maintain creativity as a part of my routine?” As part of my life, as part of my essence?
I have no answers tonight. All I do know is that it’s Sunday and time to write and that is the routine I choose, the essence I wish to have at my core.
Till next week,