Mother’s Day – Memories of the Chevy

Last week I did my Mother’s Day post but today is the official day so I’ll offer one more story about my mother and traveling.  Mother had wanderlust in her.  She loved to travel.  Part of her traveling was to see and experience new places and people. She loved to meet people and loved see what was just “over the mountain.”

One of the first songs I recall her teaching me to sing in the car went something like this, “Oh the bear went over the mountain
The bear went over the mountain
To see what he could see.”

Mother was part mamma bear – God help anyone who came between her and her kids and she just couldn’t stand not knowing what was on the other side of the mountain.  Sadly the other reason she traveled was to escape, from life, from a difficult marriage – well she had problems that I won’t discuss here.

Every summer, just after school let out, mother would pack up her three sons into a beat-up 1961 white Chevy station wagon and we’d head off into the sunrise. Her habit was to leave about 4:00 am and drive to Los Banos where we ate breakfast at a little coffee shop before heading where ever she had in mind.  We camped so the station wagon was packed with camping gear – often with a wire roof rack covered in a WWI surplus tarp (I meant world war ONE – we had a lot of WWI surplus items, tent, tarps, canteens, etc that grandpa had given us.  The WWII surplus equipment mother had she call ‘the new stuff” including all the Army blankets).

We must have been quite a sight.  I suspect people often viewed us as that “poor woman with the three boys” and most likely thought we were a group of refugees or gypsies – likely checking to see if they still had their wallets after we passed. Certainly most wouldn’t have viewed it as I did – a big adventure to see the world.

A big part of the adventure was that old chevy.  You couldn’t tell from day to day whether it would make it or not.  The engine overheated regularly, burned oil – 1 quart for 2 tanks of gas – and the tires had just enough tread to be legal.  At every gas station stop my oldest brother Bill would give the car a good once over and the gas station attendants always gave a bit of a worried look as they pumped the gas, cleaned the windshield and checked the oil.  We kept a tool kit on the back seat and all of us boys knew how to change a tire.

I remember one trip in northern California when I was eight (‘68 if you must know).  We were traveling on a lonely back road somewhere off the map and far from the well traveled tourist areas.  I don’t exactly remember where but I think it was south of Mt. Lassen.  We had stopped for a picnic lunch at a National Forest campground next to a river.  I remember mother calling Bill over to look at the engine as it had started to overheat before we stopped.  Bill found a small leak in a radiator hose.

Let me tell you something about my brother Bill. He has cerebral palsy that affects his right side.  At the time, he could walk with a bit of a stagger over level ground but had little control of his right arm so mostly he did things with his left hand.  He is the eldest and at the time would have been 18 years old.  He was our mechanic and the only one in our little troop who knew anything about cars and how to fix them.  At home he was the neighborhood bicycle mechanic and nine year olds would flock over to our garage on a summer afternoon to get Bill to fix things.

My other bother, Rick was 16, physically fit, a member of the track team, smart, a natural observer of life and totally disinterested in the internal workings of a car.

Mother called us all together and gave one of her, “I don’t know what we’re going to do but we can’t wait here for help,” speeches.  This wasn’t the first time we’d had this kind of problem and we knew the drill – mother did the panicking and worrying and we boys figured a way to get help.

Bill studied the leaking radiator hose for a long time and then decided that he could do a patch that would be good enough to get us into the next town.  Rick looked at the river, grabbed all the canteens and water containers and went off to fill them up.  My job was to read the map and the AAA book and figure out where the next town big enough to have a gas station was.

Yup – at eight I was expected to be able to read a map.  Everyone in mother’s car read a map, mostly out of self defense.  Mother read the maps but normally turned left when we were suppose to go right.  U-turns were mother’s speciality…

We were in luck because I found a small town about 40 miles away that had a motel.  Where there are motels, there is gas or so my eight year old brain reasoned.  I was also hopeful that it also meant there’d be a store where I could quietly guilt my mother into buying me a large ice cream cone.

Bill got an old tee-shirt and a roll of black electrical tape and did his best to patch the leaking hose.  Rick filled the radiator and all the water containers he could find while I showed mother what I found on the map.  The good thing about our route was that it mostly followed the river so we’d have plenty of water to keep the engine cool.  Then we were off.
Mother drove slowly – keeping it under 25 miles per hour and kept a close eye on the temperature gauge.  When it started to climb, she’d find a wide spot in the shoulder to stop.  Then we boys would jump into action – Bill would check the patch, repairing as needed, while Rick and I scrambled down from the road to the river to fill the canteens.

Back at the car we’d wait till the engine was cool enough to add water, fill it up and off we’d go again.  I guess we stopped three or four times, each time we got better at the drill and mother just let us get about our jobs without much comment other than the occasional, “be careful boys.”  We were the only people on the road and never saw another car.

I remember it was late afternoon when we finally pulled into a gas station in a little town with the hose dramatically blowing out a burst of steam just as mother turned the engine off.  Our entrance attracted  the attention of the station owner and about half the population of the little town.  I can only speculate about what they were thinking of our little band.  Some where in northern California is a gas station owner with a story about this crazy woman and three boys in a broken down Chevy who drove into his station one day.

The mechanic opened the hood, saw Bill’s patch and said, “That patch isn’t going to hold any longer.  Who put that on for you.”

Bill tried to tell the mechanic but Bill had a speech impediment and when he got excited few outside the family understood what he was saying so I took over in my role as Bill’s interpreter and pointed to Bill and said, “He did.  He does all the work on the car. And Bill says that the engine needs two quarts of oil.  30 weight please,” then I add a request of my own, “You got a coke machine?”

The mechanic had a very surprised look and turned to mother when she asked, “Do you have the parts to fix it?”

“Yeah, I can fix it. It’ll take about an hour,” he then looked at me and said, “Coke machine’s in the back.  Help yourself.”

Mother took Rick and I to find the coke machine and she bought us all a root beer.  I could have held out for an ice cream but the day was hot, the root beer cold and mother had her change purse out – best not mess up a good deal. Then she went to the little store to buy ice and milk.  Bill stayed with the car and watched the man change the radiator hose.  Rick and I drank our root beers and then went to climb on some rocks behind the gas station.

We were back on the road by late afternoon and found a small camp ground with a working water faucet just as the light of day was starting to fade.  Rick and I quickly setup camp – getting the stove, ice chest and other cooking gear out first and then turning our attention to the tent.  Mother got the hint and took out two boxes of hamburger helper for our dinner.  Yes, Mother was a great cook – there wasn’t any kind of canned or boxed food she couldn’t open and heat up.  Yum.

As night settled around us Rick lit the campfire and Mother asked, “So what do you boys want to see tomorrow?”

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Trails, Love and Hardtack

Right now my mind is buzzing in ten different directions. There is so much happening that I can’t focus on that one thing I want to write about.  Usually I decide on a direction before I sit at the keyboard but my soul is waffling.  I’d like to write more about my hike yesterday and about the books I am working on.  There are still things about the cross I haven’t said and there was a hymn in church this morning that reminded of something I wanted to say.

But then there was the trip to the cemetery today that is still weighing on my mind and my soul.  I’ve been fighting with my mind for the last 30 minutes – this wasn’t to be my mother’s day post. It was going to be a post about mountain lions and wild flowers

But my brothers and I stood by the grave today. How could she not be on my mind.

Her picture is on the wall above my desk, smiling as I struggle for words – any words.

My mother.  A contradiction in life and a puzzle my soul has yet to understand.  One day she could be strong, a survivor, and on another helpless and unable to do anything.  Educated, but couldn’t balance a check book.

It was my mother who gave me my love of the wilderness, of camping, of hiking and of being in God’s creation.  Some of my earliest memories are of being at camp with her.  She taught my bothers and I to pitch a tent, build a campfire and how to collect water from a stream.

Every summer until I was a teen she took me traveling with her.  There isn’t a state west of the Mississippi that I haven’t been in because of her.  I’ve seen Yellowstone and the Grand Canyon.  I’ve been to Zion, the Petrified Forest, the rockies and have seen parts of King’s Canyon that only park rangers and my mother have been to.

My mother insisted that I join the boy scouts for at least a year.  She thought it was important that I learn their ways and skills.  I stayed in scouting for two years but I was never a good scout, in the sense that I worked to get merit badges or advance my rank.  It was the camping, hiking and biking that I loved, not the other trappings of scouting.

I’ll have to say that one reason I didn’t like scouting too much, was because of my mother.  The scout master would get annoyed with me when I’d correct him on the proper way to light a fire with one match or the best place to pitch a tent.  I remember an assistant scout master trying to teach me a lesson in map reading and being surprised that I already knew how to read a topography map. My mother had already taught me those lessons and I thought she knew it better than they did.

When I was twelve my mother decided it was time I saw Water Wheel Falls in the Grand Canyon of the Tuolumne up in the Yosemite high country. At the time she was 45, over weight, out of shape, but convinced it was the thing to do.  She went through our camping supplies, found two old boy scout rucksacks, two WWII surplus mess kits, an old canteen and a piece of plastic for a ground sheet.  Then she took me to the local camping store where we rented a couple of light weight “mummy” bags. Then she bought a small backpack size stove, a small pot and a three day supply of dehydrated food.  I was very delighted when she found a box of “Tropical Heresy Bars.”  I wasn’t sure what hardtack was but she bought plenty.

Weeks before this I had obtained the maps we needed by writing to the USGS in Menlo Park asking for the two topography maps we’d need.  I remember the surprised and puzzled look the school librarian gave me when I came in and asked if she could help me find the correct address to write to.

We arrived in Tuolumne Meadows two days before the hike in mid June – mother wanted a couple of days to adjust to the altitude (8600 feet).  Mother insisted that we go in early season because the falls would be at their highest.  The fact that this meant that all the rivers would be at their highest and harder to cross never came into her thinking.  Instead we made camp at the driest campsite the ranger had and I tried to ignore the fact that half the camp was still closed due to snow on the ground.

On the morning of our hike, mother stopped at the ranger station telling them our plans and then we drove to the trailhead.  We put on our boots, filled the canteen in the river and slung the rucksacks on our backs.  We must have used enough DEET to cause permanent nerve damage to fight off the mosquitoes and then set off down the trail past Soda Springs, over the twin bridges and towards the Glen Aulin High Sierra camp.

We crossed the streams feeding the Tuolumne by crawling over logs, balancing on rocks or just as often by taking off boots and socks and splashing through the icy water.  We must have made quite a sight – mother and son, clearly ill equipped and woefully unfit for the journey.

But we made in to Glen Aulin in mid afternoon and mother sent me off to find firewood.  At dinner time I went down to the river with the canteens and filled a pot with water.  Then I lit the little gas stove while eating one of the candy bars.  Beef stew over hardtack – I can’t remember a better meal I ever had with mother.

In the morning we left most of our supplies and gear in camp and I took one rucksack with lunch, maps and water.  We then set off downstream in search of the falls.

There were other people on the trail that day and we would often stop to talk with them and compare maps.  About mid-day we found the falls and sat down to a lunch of hardtack, dried fruit, canned deviled ham and a chocolate bar for desert.

It’s hard to describe the falls.  Upstream there is a water fall and the river cascades over solid granite.  Then somewhere in the middle of the stream the water hits something and the water shoots into the air making a graceful half wheel.  To my young eyes the water seemed to shoot up a hundred feet and the noise of the falls sounded like the roar of a million jet engines.

Awestruck.  That is what I was.  I’d never seen anything like it before and I knew that only the few who braved the 11 miles along the river could see it.  It became a moment that mom and I would share – a moment that became one of the bonds of our life.

It was an uphill hike back to camp and the other package of beef stew with a carefully measured one-third of our remaining hardtack for dinner.  After that mother figured we had enough candy bars left to have two for desert.

At first light I woke and carefully fetched more water.  After a breakfast of oatmeal and – yes – hardtack, we packed up camp and started the long climb out of Glen Aulin.  It was a hard climb for mom.  She wasn’t in very good physical shape and had to stop often to rest.  Thinking back on the climb out I am surprised she didn’t have a heart attack on the trail.  She then taught me a hiking lesson I’ve never forgotten – the rest step.  She’d take a half step and rest for two seconds. Then take another half step and rest for two seconds.  She showed me how and said, “don’t stop, but don’t go so fast that you run out of breath.”

Sometime in the late morning we stopped for an early lunch and to let mom rest.  While we were sitting a group of college aged young men appeared.  They were out on a day hike and after doing a little rock scrambling had gotten turned around.  I pulled out my map and compass and showed them where there were.  Then I gave them directions to the parking lot.

They sensed my mom’s problem and walked with us for awhile, helping her cross over a stream on a log.  After a time they offered to carry mom’s pack but said that they had to hurry back to the parking lot because someone was waiting for them.  I still don’t know why mom did this but she gave me the car keys and told me to show the young men to the car and wait there for her.

It was odd and today we’d never let a 12 year old wonder off with four strangers and the keys to the car.  But at the time it was an adventure to me.  The young men were kind, fun and watched out for me.  At one point they carried me over a stream to save time (I was about to take my shoes off and wade).

At the car they left mom’s pack and said their good byes.  I put my pack in the car and waited under a tree.  I don’t think I waited long as I became concerned about mom.  I grabbed a canteen, the map and my two remaining candy bars and headed back up the trail.

I found her siting on a log about a mile and half from the trailhead and gave her one of the candy bars.

I don’t remember where we went after that.  All I do remember is the thrill of the hike and the beauty of the falls.

Mom died on March 12, 2007 after a short battle with pancreatic cancer.  It was a difficult time in our family’s life.  She was my friend and my two brothers were especially close to mom. I was the one helping to manage her healthcare when she was admitted to the hospital.  I took the call from the oncologist and I was the son who had to walk into the hospital room with the doctor to tell her, “You’re dying.”

How do you tell someone that?

I’ve done it and I still don’t know how.

Yesterday I hiking on Russian Ridge, not exactly Waterwheel Falls but still the memory of that hike along the Tuolumne came to mind.

Today it came back to mind.  Since mom died we three brothers gather in March to visit the cemetery and to remember her.

Most years, in March but not this year.  In March I had just finished my own treatments for prostate cancer and I wasn’t physically or emotional strong enough.  Instead we picked a Sunday closer to Mother’s day.

Today was that day – a glorious spring day.  The sun was bright and a gentle breeze cooled the grass.

There in the sun we stood by the grave and looked at the gravestone that simple says:

Irene Gloria Reynolds
Beloved Mother
9-27-1927 – 3-12-2007

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Hiking on Russian Ridge

Today we went hiking up on Russian Ridge.  This is part of the Midpeninsula Regional Open Space District.  It is one of our favorite places to hike because of the great views you can get from the top of Borel Hill.  We haven’t been hiking as much as we use to, my treatments really got in the way of that, but I am getting better all the time and we’re making an effort to get back to the trails.

There is a lot I could write about but I’ll save that for tomorrow’s post.  Today I just wanted to share what a great day we had hiking by posting a few pictures of the day.  Heather took these with her new camera.  Enjoy.

View from the trail

 

California Poppy

 

Old Men of the Forest

 

Trail through the Forest

 

Sea of Grass

 

View across the bay from Borel Hill

 

 

 

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Latest Addition

I’ve always wanted to be a writer.  I’ve written for most of my life, learning and perfecting what little skill and insight I have.  This blog is part of my most recent effort to sharpen my writing and be an outlet for the little weird things I write.  As I’ve been cutting on my scroll saw and moving towards completing my cross my mind has start to drift back to reflecting on my past and today I’ve updated my “Intertexual Andrew” page with a book that I’ll credit with disturbing my mind and directing my future towards getting a BA in English rather than one in engineering.

The book is, “The Voices of Man, Let us be Men.”  Published in 1974, I read it in 1978 at a special high school English class while studying to take my GED exam.  In that thin little volume are a number of great works of short fiction and poetry.  Of course, I had read books before for school – some great works of literature But there was something that caught my mind.  The one that sticks in my mind the most is this poem by Sterling A. Brown:

Thoughts on Death:

Thoughts of death
Crowd over my happiness
Like dark clouds
Over the silver sickle of the moon

Death comes to some
Like a grizzled gangster
Clubbing in the night;
To some
Like an obstinate captain
Steadily besieging barriers;
To some like a brown adder
Lurking in violet-speckled underbrush;
To some
Like a gentle nurse
Taking their toys and stroking their hot brows.

Death will come to you, I think,
Like an old shrewd gardener
Culling his rarest blossom . . . .

That last line is the one that changed me.  The class was self paced and the teacher gave me a list of questions to answer about the poem in the form of a three page essay.  I don’t remember the exact question but one was asked what did that last stanza mean.  Well I had no idea – what was “culling” and what did a gardener and death have in common.  They seemed like opposites to me.

At the time I insisted that I knew nothing of poetry and this was clearly beyond my understanding.  I took the assignment back to the teacher and objected to the whole thing.  She was used to working with impatient youths and quietly suggested that I look up each word in the dictionary.  “Perhaps,” she said, “You’ll find enough meaning to fill a couple of paragraphs.”

Grumbling I opened the dictionary and found more than a few paragraphs of meaning.  I found it’s not a morbid poem on death but rather a gentle, kindly wish for a friend.  The old gardener, death coming for you, a rare thing, a special person not just an object but a blossom that was full of life and joy.  The gardener doesn’t come in malice or anger but comes collecting the rare prizes of his garden.

It is a comforting thought and even though at 18 I didn’t really understand death, it was a change in my thinking. It was a new experience – to look at someone’s words and come up with a meaning for me without someone explaining what it meant. I can’t say I developed a deep love of poetry after that but it did open a door and I have found a few treasures in that world of verse.

I think I ended up writing more than three pages on that poem and the teacher liked what I wrote.  Now I wish I had kept that paper but it is lost to time and all that remains is its memory and its impact.

It was one of many experiences that slowly convinced me that if I were ever able to study something in depth, it would be words, meanings and the stuff that can change worlds.

I moved from that little book to study electronics and computer software, earning certificates in different skills.  On the job, I fix and tinker with things, but in my heart I am a seeker of words, stories and meanings.  I am a fortunate man to have found a way, with the help of my dear wife, to take a couple of years off working and take time to puruse words and stories and meanings.

Until this year there has always been time – a tomorrow to delay into.  There was always the tomorrow, the next month, next year that I’ll write my book or return to my studies.  Even though my cancer isn’t going to take my life anytime soon, it has reignited a sense of urgency for words – reading them and crafting them.  Since my diagnosis I have written more and more consistently than I ever have.

I am coming close to a point where I feel the need to take a leap at a more ambitious work.  I have two projects in mind – one a work of fiction and one a work of fact.  On my desk and in this computer are notes and outlines.  In my mind are visions, fragments and hopes.  There are many questions and doubts – can I do it, will my body allow me, will my mind be able to complete and will the effort have been worth it?

I don’t know – first I have a cross to finish.

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