Here – A Dialog of Place

How many times have I stood here and listened to time’s echoes?

Most of my life has been lived within ten miles of where I was born.  Oh, I’ve traveled some and seen great wonders.  There are plenty of miles under my feet.

But it is to here I always return.  I’ve never been one to make my wanderings more permanent.  I am a creature of here.

I can tell you what used to be here and when that road was built.  I’m that guy.

There is a trail near my office.  A trail by a creek.  Hundreds of people a day leave their offices and apartments to walk or run on that trail, next to that creek.  It’s a nice paved trail with trees and grass and sometimes the sound of water.

I remember a time when there wasn’t a trail here and childhood friends and I trespassed through the orchard to find ourselves on a narrow dirt path that would one day see dog walkers, stroller pushers and runners.  Back then we 12 year-olds moved quickly to avoid the farmer, who rumor had it, chased young trespassers with a shotgun loaded with rock salt.

Back then the dear path we followed sometimes branched down to the creek where you could dip you hand for a drink of cool water.  That was before we learned of what toxins found their way into this paradise of dry grass and fruit trees.

Sometimes when I walk the new trail, I still see those boys on a Saturday afternoon, running from imagined ogres/farmers and stopping to skip stones across the sleepy pools of a dying creek on a summer day.  The freedom and joy of those days.

How can I tell you of the day when this young man drove by the orchard and saw the fruit trees being pulled up and hauled away?  Progress. As my heart sank and my memories remain in my mind alone.  Apartments rose from the ruins of the trees and chain link fences replaced the old rusting broken barbed wire.

For decades local maps held a dotted line that would someday be the “West Valley” freeway.  It was to cut across our creek at a place were we once tried to build a rock dam.  The water rose faster than we could move rocks and in the end we just threw rocks at the water before mounting out bikes and riding off to the Dairy Queen for an ice cream cone.

I was walking on the trail under that new freeway and I thought I could see the vague outline of that old rock dam – not too far from where the pillars of the freeway were driven into and below the creek.  My past buried under tons of concrete so thousands of cars can add their toxins to the pure air of my youth.

How this place has changed.  I’ve changed too.  A bit older, a bit fatter and I no longer eat ice cream cones.  No longer am I that boy who’d run away from home for a Saturday of fun along the creek. 

Now I am just an older office dweller, who after a morning of writing emails, takes a stroll by the creek.  I tell my coworkers and my doctor that it’s for my body’s health and that the goal is 8,000 steps.

But it is really so I can talk to the rocks and ask the trees if they remember me.

Peace,

Andrew

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Friday Wisdom – Deja Moo

Deja Moo: The feeling that you’ve heard this bull before.

More words next week,

Andrew

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Wednesday Words and Woodworking – Assembly Cart and 3,000

First, thanks to all who are following this blog.  Over the weekend my follower count edged just over 3,000.  I appreciate all of you who take the time to read my little writings I post up here in cyberspace.

I mentioned in a post a while back that I’ve applied to attend a couple of poetry workshops this summer.  Almost good news here as the one I really wanted to attend (and the hardest to get into) sent me an email yesterday saying that I’ve been put on their waiting list for an opening.  This workshop only accepts about 30% of applicants and while I didn’t get one of the seats outright, they said that they liked my poetry and added me to the short list in case there’s an opening in the next two weeks.

So a “good” rejection. 😉

I haven’t heard from the other workshop yet.  I’m not going to name them until the selection process is completed.

My cold kept me most out of the workshop, but on Sunday I managed a little time and finished assembling my assembly table so I can assembly other projects …

The table is on wheels and holds my air compressor and air tools:

My compressed air supply

and the surface for building stuff:

Some of my common assembly tools. I do have bigger hammers if needed.

That’s it for this week.

If you need me – I’ll be in the shop.

Andrew

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Benson Arizona

Sometimes an old song or memory just gets stuck in your mind and won’t leave.

This one’s been playing for a couple of days:

“Benson, Arizona, blew warm wind through your hair

My body flies the galaxy, my heart longs to be there”

Recognize it?  Some of you may have, if like me you spent most of the 70’s watching weird science fiction movies or if the 80’s you attended a science fiction convention where they were playing this cult classic film.

By 90’s I’d purchased a VHS tape of the film.

Figured it out yet?

How about if I mention “thermostellar triggering device”?

Beach ball alien?

Veil Neubula?

Phenomenology?

Of course, now you remember, Dark Star, John Carpenter’s first movie and the only John Carpenter movie I ever liked (or even really watched, except for Halloween where I was the security guard for the theater and saw it something 23 times, but after years of therapy, I feel much better).

It’s a quirky movie.  Low budget as this was Carpenter’s senior project for film school.  How it ever made it to a real theater or to home video is a subject beyond the scope of this post.  I will say that when it was discovered by guys like me who thought George Lucas’ THX1138 was a better story than Star Wars, Dark Star entered that cult realm where it has entered a kind of immortality.

“Benson, Arizona, the same stars in the sky

But they seemed so much kinder when we watched them, you and I”

For the few of you who’ve not had the joy of watching this film over and over again, let me summarize the plot:

The Dark Star is an interstellar scout ship that has been given the mission of scouting out places were people can colonize and using its bombs, the “thermostellar triggering devices,” the crew destroys unstable planets making the area safe.  The problem is that the ship is falling apart – a radiation explosion destroyed the crew’s quarters and a short-circuit in the his chair during a hyperspace jump killed Commander Powell.  The crew has been at this for 20 years and is starting to have a number of mental break downs.  During one malfunction bomb number 20 decides it’s received a message to drop, but the main computer talks to it and convinces it to return to the bomb bay – yes the bombs are smart.  Later during a real bomb run another malfunction fails to release the bomb and it starts its countdown to blow up while still attached to the ship.  Dolittle, the ship’s second in command, talks to the bomb using Cartesian doubt and tells the bomb that the message it received to explode is false.

Which is great as bomb #20 returns to the bomb bay to consider what Dolittle just said.  Sadly for the crew a few minutes later the bomb announces, “In the beginning there was darkness … and I saw I was alone. Let there be light.”  And it promptly blows up.

Yes, the film is noted in most references as being a comedy.

There are moments in the film that are down right funny, like when sergeant Pinback chases an alien shaped like a beach ball (actually it is a beach ball with claws glued on).  The special effects are cheesy and the dialog, is just plan formulaic, but the way it is delivered dead pan by the actors just adds to the fun.

Well, there are maybe a thousand or two of us on the planet who love this film.

I mean you’ve got to love a SciFi movie whose title song is sung by a gravelly voiced country singer.

While the movie has always had a special place in my heart and funny bone, the movies and books of that era had a special something that something that I find so hard to describe.  As a teen and young adult, there was always this yearning to be part of a big adventure – to do something bold, to go somewhere strange, to do the impossible, and be the hero.

Maybe it’s just a natural part of being young, but I so wanted to fly between the stars or to explore the mysteries of the universe.

Why this has stuck in my head I can’t really say.  Nostalgia? Unfulfilled dreams?

Or perhaps as I get closer to retirement, the more I think of the extremes of my life often  find my mind drifting back to my youth and that time when everything seemed fresh and there was a universe to discover.

Someday, I’ll invite you over and we can watch the film – in a double feature with Silent Running.

Andrew

Here’s the song for you to enjoy: https://youtu.be/eTa2vXL7FI8

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