The Teddy Bear

I was 18 when my father went for surgery to repair a hernia.  It was the first time I ever had to visit a parent in the hospital and I was very unsure about what I was supposed to do.  I had been with my mother when we visited my grandfather in the hospital just before he died and I had worked in a nursing home so I had some idea of what to expect.

I had some idea that part of my job was to comfort and bring a bit of happiness to the room so I thought about it and decided to stop in the hospital gift shop.  Now, my father was a man’s man, no frills or anything fluffy about him.  Flowers, candy, cards – nothing seemed right as a gift so I decided to just go for the joke and bought him a nice little teddy bear that had, “Get Well” stitched across his tummy.

Father appreciated the joke, put the bear in bed with him and showed all the nurses his new, “friend.”

Two days later when we were getting him ready for the ride home, he made special mention of the bear and made sure it was not left behind.  Unlike the flowers and other gifts he’d received, most of which were left at the nurse’s station for them to enjoy to “give to a patient who needs them.”

When we got home and father was settled in his easy chair with the TV remote, I made a big deal out of placing the little teddy bear on the end table so it also had a good view of the TV.

At that moment my cat, Chewbacca, appeared.

Yes, it was 1978 and I had a cat name Chewbacca.  Now I’d like to explain that I didn’t name the cat but it was an appropriate name as my Chewbacca was very much like the Star Wars character – large, loud and willing to fight.  I had gotten Chewbacca (no one dared call him Chewie) as a kitten from friends just after the Star Wars movie had come out and when I showed it to my girl friend she happily exclaimed, “He’s sooo cute.  He looks just like Chewbacca.”  The name stuck and Chewbacca soon grew into a very large tom cat that fought every cat in the neighborhood – including a few of the dogs – and regularly left us dead birds on the back steps.

Our brave warrior, the mighty Chewbacca.

Except when it came to teddy bears.

Father, having just taken a pain pill, was in a playful mood and decided to introduced Chewbacca to his new teddy bear.  Chewbacca was taken by surprise and jumped three feet straight up in the air, ran out of the living room and dived behind the piano.  He refused to come out and was hissing violently toward the fiendish teddy bear.

Well that got us all laughing so much so that you could see tears forming in father’s eyes – from the laughter and the pain in the groin that the laughing was causing.

Father then sat the teddy bear on the floor next to his chair and for the next two days Chewbacca avoided the area around father’s chair.  The mighty warrior watched his opponent  from six feet away – moving in slow stealthful arcs around the living room, slinking quietly behind chairs and pillows to conceal his movements.

Then on the morning of the third day we saw Chewbacca maneuver carefully behind the piano.  Chewbacca was in the bear’s blind spot and with a sudden lightening leap Chewbacca attacked – teeth and claws bared – knocking the teddy bear to the ground.  He, being a wise warrior continued his run and didn’t turn around until he had achieved a place of safety behind the TV.

Noting that the bear did not give chase or retaliate in any way, Chewbacca pulled himself up to this full height, marched bravely over to the defeated teddy bear and proceeded to rip it to shreds.

For weeks we’d find bits of teddy bear stuffing around the house.

Father was greatly amused and told that story for years – at any mention of hospitals, surgery, or teddy bears.

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Hernia Repair, A father’s Gift

I understand “repairing things.”  It’s been my career. At 18 I learned electronics and started working as an electronic technician – in the repair shop.  I was good at.  I enjoyed it.

But when it’s me who you’re talking about repairing my attitude changes.  I am just fine and there isn’t anything wrong with me.  Well, except for a little blood pressure, a bit of gout, I could lose a few pounds and there is that whole prostate cancer thing.  But, other than that, I am fine.

A couple of months ago things, well, down there, weren’t feeling right – painful in fact.  Being an enlightened 21st century man who knows that sometimes it is better to seek help for a problem then to hold to my outmoded ideas of manliness and macho reserve.  I emailed my doctor.

The first response satisfied me greatly – the out of office auto-responder – she was on vacation and wouldn’t be available for a week.  See, I did ask for help and the doctor but she isn’t there so no problem I’ll just suffer here quietly until she returns.

When did doctors start having on-call doctors read their doctor to patient emails?

The second response I get is from the on-call doctor saying I need to be seen and she’ll have the medical assistant call me first thing in the morning to schedule a time.  What was wrong with just ignoring me for a month or so?  You knew that when it got bad enough I’d call back.

So the next morning the MA calls and they found a doctor I could see.  Now I want to make it clear that at this point I knew what was wrong and what I was going to be told.  I knew that in a few days a surgeon was going to say, “yes that’s inguinal hernia. Put your pants on and we’ll schedule you for surgery.”

But there was still the principle of plausible deniability – ie, until that surgeon said those words I could continue to live in my happy state of denial.  Well, it took two hospital visits before I saw the surgeon, who after much poking and prodding and coughing pronounced, “you’ve got a hernia.  You could wait for a while for surgery but if it gets worse only surgery will fix it.”

Thanks I knew that.

You want to know how I knew?  I know what you’re thinking, I must spend a lot of time on web-MD looking things up (actually I don’t, the Mayo Clinic has a much better on-line medical encyclopedia) or perhaps I worked on medical electronics and picked up a thing or two on the side.

None of those – it was my father who taught me all about hernias.  And it is his fault that I have one.  Turns out hernias tend to run in families and if your father had one, you’re very likely to get one.

My first lesson was after class in ’78 at the electronics school.  I’d walked over to the bus stop and there was my dad parked in his beat up Ford Pinto.  Something was wrong because in the four months I attended the school, dad had only been there once and it wasn’t like him to just drop by and give his son a lift home (under normal circumstances he wouldn’t even give me bus fare).  I don’t recall the whole conversation but it went something like this:
Dad waves and says, “Hey chum, I’ll give you a lift.”

“Sure, better than waiting for the bus,” I replied and waited for the worst.

“Well chum I’ve got a problem. I just came from the doctor and I have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow.”

“Oh.”

“I’ve got a hernia and it hurts like hell.”  From the pained expression on his face I believed him.  I now have first hand experience with it.

Then he asked if I knew what a hernia was and when I replied, “no,” he did what he did best: delivered a full, complete, accurate and well rehearsed lecture on what a hernia was, what caused it, what the risk factors are and the generally accepted treatment options.  He included supplemental comments on his own case, noted things the doctor mentioned and commented on the qualifications of the surgeon he was referred to.  He also told me I should be careful when I lift things because it was very likely that I could end up with one too someday.

His case was bad so the surgeon scheduled him early the next week.

I got to witness the whole thing, taking him to surgery, watching mother chase doctors around the hospital for information and visiting him after surgery.  At the time the surgery required a two night stay in the hospital and I did my part as a dutiful son visiting him each afternoon after school.  Him being in the hospital did ease my transportation problems as I got the car keys.

There are only two important differences between my father’s case and mine.  He waited to see the doctor until the pain was much greater than mine and today’s surgical methods have improved greatly.  He stayed three days in the hospital, had to go back in two weeks to remove stitches while I had the procedure done as an out-patient and the doctor will call my on my cell phone this Friday to see how I am doing (no stitches, it’s all glue these days).  These days they also have a mesh they put over the repair to help prevent a re-occurrence.

Of course, none of the above is the story I actually sat down to write – that one had a teddy bear in it – but it is what’s been on my mind all day.  Slowly I am getting back to normal.  Today I’ve been able to sit at the computer and write.  I’ve been for a walk down the block and hope that tomorrow I can stand a few minutes in front of my scroll saw and do some cutting on my rocket ship puzzle.

Now I am going to take a little walk around the house and if things feel okay, I’ll write about the teddy bear.

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Writer Down for Maintenance

This hasn’t been the best of weeks for me.  I’ve had worse but not for some time.  On Thursday I went in to the hospital for surgery to repair a hernia.  I am recovering well and expect to be back on my feet soon but today I am still on pain killers so I’ve decided not to write a post.  At the moment it just hurts too much to sit at the computer and the drugs are giving me an interesting perspective on life that is best not shared.

So the view this is week is a bit fuzzy and blurry with everything tilted to the left – until lunch time when it shifts gently to the right.

I’ll be back next week with some stories of adventures and perhaps a bit of wisdom on the use of pain medications in modern medical practice.

Until then, mark this writer as down for routine maintenance.  I should be back on-line by next Sunday.

 

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The Fence Post

Yesterday I finished building the fence that will be the backer to the deck we’re going to build in the back yard.  Heather helped a lot with the measuring and getting things square and plumb. I don’t work fast so this has taken awhile to finish.  Framing in the deck is next but that will have to wait awhile.  Likely it will be later in the fall or spring before deck construction begins.    Heather planted a few  flowering vines that we’re going to train over the fence to create a nice green back ground for our new seating area.  Here are a couple of pictures that Heather took:

Me putting in the last 2×4.

The fence is finished. Now it just needs a deck in front of it.

 

The fence needs a little more work to trim the posts to the right height and there is a trellis on the left that needs to be attached.  Seems like there is always an unfinished part of any project.

And yes, I am not writing much this week.  I did write a long piece yesterday but it’s not ready – it was all about what my next writing focus is going to be.  I feel like I am sitting on the fence looking into four different backyards.  All look interesting but I am still undecided which one to jump into and explore.

So for another week you get pictures and not much text.

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