Decision

It’s now three weeks since surgery and healing is still happening.  The only problem is that my body’s healing itself is taking all my energy and there’s not much left over.  At least the pain is subsiding and there are times that I even forget about it.  I spoke to the surgeon on Friday and he thought I was recovering just fine but said that I can expect to take another couple of months before I am back to 100 percent.

Oh joy.

Well, despite that it’s time that I left the protection of my easy chair and got back into the world.  Tomorrow I return to the office and am hoping to make it a full week.  We’ll see.  I  have been working from home the last couple of weeks so this is just adding the stress of driving to the office.  Driving has been one things I’ve been finding difficult as the bouncing, bumping and getting in and out of the car seem to just set off the area around the incision making things uncomfortable.  Still, it’s better each time I get out so I am hoping by the end of the week to back into the whole working thing.

Not that I wouldn’t mind having another month or two in the easy chair but it is time to move on and pick things up.

I have spent some time in the last week trying to figure out what parts of my life to pick up and what I am just going to leave behind.  That’s still a work in progress but I’ve made a couple of decisions.  I am dropping some of the leadership work I was doing at my church and instead am going to help maintain the church website and help start a podcast.  One of the books I was going to write I’ve decided to drop for now as the publisher isn’t moving very fast and I have different things I’d like to write about.

You’ll remember a few weeks ago I was debating with myself where I was going to go with this blog.  I’ve thought of a host of things I could do here but I’ve decided to do — nothing.  Yup, I am not going to change a thing and I’ll just belly up to the computer every Sunday afternoon and write for about 800 words and post it.  If I can’t think of anything to write, you’ll get 800 words on why I can’t think of what to write about.

There are some new directions I’d like to take with my creative projects.  One of the things I’d like to do is more video editing work.  This summer we took a lot of video of our grandkids and I had lots of fun editing that into some short movies.  I posted one of my other efforts, the mediation video.  I have found that to be a fun and rewarding creative outlet so I’ll be doing more of it.

I’ll still be in the wood shop but I’d like to spend more time hiking and being in nature.  It’s something that Heather and haven’t done much this year.  Early this year we had to put it aside because of my cancer treatments but then other things kept coming up and we’ve not made it out very much. Just about the time I thought we could start doing more a surgeon invited me to the hospital for some fun.  It’s been that kind of year.

I do miss hiking and being in God’s creation.  There is something in that world that is just plain good for body, mind and soul.  Which is the really big decision we’ve made this week – setting a goal of at least one hike a month.  Yesterday was the first one when we walked around Alpine pond.  All half mile of it.  Okay, that’s not much of a hike and it took us longer to drive there and back but it was outdoors, in nature and I even wore my hiking hat.  Next month I hope to do a bit longer hike (maybe a whole mile) and will be increasing my daily walking to get into condition for it.

The real problem with our hiking is that it is so easy to find a reason not to do it – it looks windy/cold/hot/rainy/ or we’re not in shape or we walked to Starbucks last week or any of a hundred other reasons.  Although you have to admit that just having had surgery is a darn good excuse to stay off the trail.

We’ve come up with a plan to hold ourselves accountable to the task while incorporating hiking with some of the other things we’d like to do.  I’ve mentioned doing more video editing and more web site work so the new plan is to create a new website and blog dedicated to our hiking adventures.  There will be a hike once a month with pictures and a short video.  The website will encourage others to also get out beyond the easy chair and explore their connection to the natural world.  Other themes in the blog will include the health benefits, how hiking feeds our creativity and how it helps balance our life.  I am also thinking of including a feature called, “the excuse of the month.”

The current working title for this little project is, “The Reluctant Hiker.”  Let me know what you think of that title.

I’ll let you know how it progresses and when the site is up and running.

That’s it for this week.  Next time I’ll let you know how this new effort is going, plus I am going to revisit my favorite book, “Earth Abides,” to share some new insights I have.

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Feeling like Healing has Arrived

I’ve had a busy week sitting around waiting for my body to heal.  Let’s see, I’ve sat at my computer and edited some videos (hope you liked my meditation video), wrote some stuff and did a bit of work for the office.  I’ve been spending an hour a day in my workshop cutting on my scroll saw – finished the space ship puzzle I’ve been working on. Then I ate my lunch out on the back patio before returning to the big easy chair in the living room where I’ve been watching Heather put a 2000 piece puzzle together in the evenings.  I’ve walked around the block every day and on Thursday Heather took the big risk of letting me drive us to Starbuck’s for a fancy drink – first time behind the wheel since surgery.  The highlight of the week was going to a friend’s home last night for dinner.

Yup, it’s been a week just chuck full of excitement.

And frustration.

But that’s how it is with recovering from a major event like surgery.  Each day brings the joy that there is something I can do again and each day there is a reminder of what I still can’t do.

Well, like yesterday.  Normally Heather and I do the grocery shopping together.  I drive, push the shopping cart, cross things off the shopping list and do the heavy lifting while Heather selects the food and fills the cart with things that aren’t on the list.  After surgery Heather ended up having to do all the shopping on her own.  Yesterday we decided I’d come along and do what I could.

I was able to drive, monitor the list and push cart.  That was about it.  Currently I am limited to lifting no more than ten pounds so except for a box of cereal and a half-gallon of milk I was useless in the heavy lifting department.  Yes, it’s a bit of a bruise to my male ego to stand by and watch Heather loading the cat litter into the car.

It’s now that misty in-between state of healing – don’t feel bad enough to need the pain pills but don’t have the strength to do much.  It’s also that place where I fear that if I over do, I’ll set myself back but at the same time feel that I’ll delay my recovery if I don’t push myself to do more each day.

Sigh…

It’s all back to time.  Healing takes time like I talked about last week.  Now that more time has passed I can start to really feel the recovery taking hold.  I’ve been feeling for a few days that I am at that next stage – picking up the threads of my life that I dropped.

The timing of my surgery was a bit unexpected.  I saw the surgeon in July but since it was classified as “elective” surgery I was put on the bottom of the schedule and had to wait.  Eventually they called back and said they could schedule me for 9/13.  Then I got a call and was told there was a cancellation and would I like to have surgery two weeks earlier.  Well, it was a bit of a shock but we figured better to get it over with so I said yes and started closing down my life.

Perhaps that’s a bit over dramatic to say it that way but when I started to tell people and we started to make plans it felt like putting life on hold.  Suddenly the answer to many questions became, “after I’ve recovered.”  Worries and plans were set aside.

Now on this side of the event it’s time to start finding those threads I dropped and start picking them up.

As I start to emerge, I think about the changes coming at my job, the projects I wanted to complete in the workshop by Christmas and the changes I was thinking about making in this blog – about the different directions I can take my writing and other artistic interests.

Soon, I’ll be able to lift 20 pounds and by the end of the month the weight restrictions are off.

So it is with the threads of life that got dropped.  I can now pick up a few and soon will be able to manage them all.

But while I look at the pile of threads at my feet, I wonder if I really need to pick them all up.  Some, while part of my life a few weeks ago, I now wonder if they shouldn’t just be left on the ground.

But that is another post.

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Pictures from the wood shop

Tonight I’ve decided to do two posts.  First here are some pictures of recent wood working projects I’ve completed.  I’ll post an essay later on – got to do a bit more editing on that one.

This week I’ve been well enough to complete this spaceship puzzle I’ve been cutting on the scroll saw.  It’s a 3D puzzle and you’ll see the little space people who are part of the ship.

The completed spaceship

There are four of these little space people.

And this one Heather and I finished a couple of weeks ago.  It’s a sheep knitting caddy.  I cut the parts on the scroll saw and Heather painted it.

Completed sheep knitting caddy

The next project to finish in the workshop is the serving trays I started a few months ago.  Today I finally got the table saw set up right so I could trim the side rails to the right size.  Now that I can lift a little more I hope to get the router table setup this week so I can cut the needed rabbets.  I’ll post project pictures later in the week.

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Meditation Video

I finally feel like I am starting to heal from surgery.  The pain is much reduced and I am starting to get a bit bored.

Well today’s fun was playing with still pictures in iMove and making them into a little movie.  The result is a bit of a relaxation/meditation video similar to one they where playing in the waiting room at the hospital.

The pictures for this video came from a hike Heather and I did at the Russian Ridge Open Space Preserve in the Santa Cruz Mountains for the first part and then I used some pictures of our walk on the Malvern Hills from our trip in June.

Anyway, this is a bit of an experiment for me.  I’ve been thinking of including some kind of podcast or video work in this blog and this is really just to see if I could make all the technical parts work.  Hopefully the creative part of this is enjoyable for you:

There you have it.  Don’t know if I’ll do another – I am still trying to figure where to focus this blog – that thinking got interrupted by a surgeon but I am slowly starting to think about it again.

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